Recently it seems as if every time I post a new blog it has been awhile since I have written, so my deepest apologies. My life has been crazy recently. I leave to go home in 2 weeks exactly, I have project due date on Monday, I have lots of homework and a couple finals coming up. School is the most consuming thing in my life currently, but with school comes friends, issues, projects, homework and drama.
I don't know if it's because it is my second year in college, but I have found that more and more people tend to put others down. Maybe it's because we know each other better now or maybe it's simply because we don't have anything better to do. I know for a fact that I have said some pretty nasty things about some people this year and all it is doing for me is...well, nothing actually.
Putting others down may build you up for a temporary moment, but in the end you're the one who is hurting yourself by wasting your time talking about someone or something when you could be doing better things such as ; encouraging someone, buying someone a gift, giving advice, getting closer to God or just having quiet time.
My challenge is to see if you can go a day without talking negatively about anything or anyone. I mean, it is the time of year to focus more on being grateful. Who knows? Maybe you'll save a breath or two :)
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
The Great Sadness
The Shack by William Paul Young has recently inspired me to better my walk with the Lord by putting my full faith in Him. Although this concept may not sound as difficult, I believe putting it to action is the most difficult thing in the Christian walk. In the book, Young talks about a man who goes through this Great Sadness in his life. Overtime you realize that this overwhelming emotion in his life is the loss of his youngest child. Obviously, this loss is a great burden in his life and later he ends up giving this burden to Christ.
Recently in my life I guess you could say that a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I gave something to God that had been tying me down for too long. After I gave it to Him, it hurt a little, but God gave me peace of mind about it. Letting go of this burden did not mean that I couldn't pick it up again though. And I did just that too! I picked it up again, carrying as if it were my own and that's when I began to crumble back down into this dark state again. Have you ever been in a dark room? And by dark I mean, you can't even think about what daylight looks like and the darkness is just swallowing you. You can literally feel the darkness. That's the state that I'm talking about. The state of complete despair and hopelessness. Here's the thing though. Just when you want to give up, hurt yourself even more than you're hurting, or shut off entirely to the only Light in your life; you see it. The little flicker in the distance. The voice in the darkness that causes you to be at peace and be still. That soft, quiet, humble, yet powerful voice.
If you didn't catch it, that voice was God's. That Light is Jesus. He is the Light unto our paths we tread. He is the hope we have when all else fails. He is the peace inside our hearts that keeps us from fighting with ourselves to do something stupid. He is that still, small, beautiful voice.
Whether your Great Sadness be a loss in the family, an emotional struggle, an inward spiritual battle or a physical insecurity; let Jesus take your burden at the cross. He already paid the costly price to make that un-needed pain go away in your life.
Let God, be The Great Happiness in your life.
Recently in my life I guess you could say that a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I gave something to God that had been tying me down for too long. After I gave it to Him, it hurt a little, but God gave me peace of mind about it. Letting go of this burden did not mean that I couldn't pick it up again though. And I did just that too! I picked it up again, carrying as if it were my own and that's when I began to crumble back down into this dark state again. Have you ever been in a dark room? And by dark I mean, you can't even think about what daylight looks like and the darkness is just swallowing you. You can literally feel the darkness. That's the state that I'm talking about. The state of complete despair and hopelessness. Here's the thing though. Just when you want to give up, hurt yourself even more than you're hurting, or shut off entirely to the only Light in your life; you see it. The little flicker in the distance. The voice in the darkness that causes you to be at peace and be still. That soft, quiet, humble, yet powerful voice.
If you didn't catch it, that voice was God's. That Light is Jesus. He is the Light unto our paths we tread. He is the hope we have when all else fails. He is the peace inside our hearts that keeps us from fighting with ourselves to do something stupid. He is that still, small, beautiful voice.
Whether your Great Sadness be a loss in the family, an emotional struggle, an inward spiritual battle or a physical insecurity; let Jesus take your burden at the cross. He already paid the costly price to make that un-needed pain go away in your life.
Let God, be The Great Happiness in your life.
Monday, August 22, 2011
All Things Work Together For Good. Don't They?
Do you remember when you were little and you were super excited to go to your friends house for a sleepover? Or when you couldn't wait to open up that gift at Christmas? Or what about the time you counted down until it was your birthday? Where did all those feelings go? It seems as if the little things don't impress us anymore. Everything in life has to be bigger and better. Need less to say, I want that feeling of excitement to come back to me for college.
I will be 100% honest with anyone who asks me right now if I'm excited to go back to school right now and my answer will be the same every time; no. Sure, I am stoked to see my friends, I'm excited to be a Room Leader and ready to see what God has in store for me,but I am dreading this more than anything. I have to say goodbye to one of my closest friends and it's killing me. I have to leave my little brother who I got closer with this summer and I have to leave my mom who at times bugged me like no other,but we worked through it.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck. I am ready to give up,but I keep getting this tiny ounce of hope every time I open the Word, read my daily verse, or pray to God. Everything is going to be okay. I just have to continue to tell myself that.
I will be 100% honest with anyone who asks me right now if I'm excited to go back to school right now and my answer will be the same every time; no. Sure, I am stoked to see my friends, I'm excited to be a Room Leader and ready to see what God has in store for me,but I am dreading this more than anything. I have to say goodbye to one of my closest friends and it's killing me. I have to leave my little brother who I got closer with this summer and I have to leave my mom who at times bugged me like no other,but we worked through it.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck. I am ready to give up,but I keep getting this tiny ounce of hope every time I open the Word, read my daily verse, or pray to God. Everything is going to be okay. I just have to continue to tell myself that.
Ripping Off The Band-aid
As a little kid everything seems to be so much bigger than it actually is. Recently, I went to a waterpark that I had not been to in over five years. Going there was like facing that huge final exam my second grade year.
From going to the water park I came to conclude that experiences in our life are always going to seem one way, but be another in the big picture. We as humans are going to continuously go through things in our life that will sometimes seem very big, but in the 'big' picture of life they will be very small and vice versa. I believe that as a girl I tend to let emotions get the best of me at times and I have recently known someone who went through a situtation that seemed big, but in the long run, it is only a little thing that she will face in life. Looking back she will think 'Wow, I really thought was a lot bigger of a deal than it was.' And the cycle goes on and will continue throughout our lives. I'm not saying in the least that we should shrug off every event in our lives as if they mean nothing, but I am challenging myself and others to be strong in every situation even if it hurts like a load of bricks hitting you in the chest and knocking the wind out of you.
Things in life are gonna come at us quick and we need to be willing to rip off the band-aid quickly so it doesn't hurt worse in the end.
From going to the water park I came to conclude that experiences in our life are always going to seem one way, but be another in the big picture. We as humans are going to continuously go through things in our life that will sometimes seem very big, but in the 'big' picture of life they will be very small and vice versa. I believe that as a girl I tend to let emotions get the best of me at times and I have recently known someone who went through a situtation that seemed big, but in the long run, it is only a little thing that she will face in life. Looking back she will think 'Wow, I really thought was a lot bigger of a deal than it was.' And the cycle goes on and will continue throughout our lives. I'm not saying in the least that we should shrug off every event in our lives as if they mean nothing, but I am challenging myself and others to be strong in every situation even if it hurts like a load of bricks hitting you in the chest and knocking the wind out of you.
Things in life are gonna come at us quick and we need to be willing to rip off the band-aid quickly so it doesn't hurt worse in the end.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Accomplishing Great Things
"Being busy does not always mean real work. The object of all work is production or accomplishment and to either of these ends there must be forethought, system, planning, intelligence, and honest purpose, as well as perspiration. Seeming to do is not doing." Thomas A. Edison.
This quote about sums up my freshman year at college. I mean, I was always busy doing something,but that busyness did not necessarily mean I was really accomplishing anything worthwhile. I mean, I could have been busy eating that chemical processed food in the dining commons, or working on a paper I did not want to be writing at 4 in the morning. Either way, the heart behind it and the attitude is what matters more than turning in a paper 3 minutes before it's due.
What did I "accomplish" my freshman year at college then. I think I learned more than I ever have in my life about patience, love, friendship, spirituality, religion, teamwork, good character, and more. God really showed His work throughout the year. Although I was not the closest with God at times I KNEW He was still there watching over my shoulder helping me "accomplish" the things that were worthwhile.
I made new friends, said goodbye to some and cried with many. Through it all I have learned that God knows what He is doing no matter what. He puts people into our lives because He loves us, He wants us to learn to love others besides ourselves and because He is an awesome God. I am excited to see what God has in store for me and my friends I've made here at school this summer. I hope He does something life changing and that we accomplish all that should be accomplished.
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end."
So long.
This quote about sums up my freshman year at college. I mean, I was always busy doing something,but that busyness did not necessarily mean I was really accomplishing anything worthwhile. I mean, I could have been busy eating that chemical processed food in the dining commons, or working on a paper I did not want to be writing at 4 in the morning. Either way, the heart behind it and the attitude is what matters more than turning in a paper 3 minutes before it's due.
What did I "accomplish" my freshman year at college then. I think I learned more than I ever have in my life about patience, love, friendship, spirituality, religion, teamwork, good character, and more. God really showed His work throughout the year. Although I was not the closest with God at times I KNEW He was still there watching over my shoulder helping me "accomplish" the things that were worthwhile.
I made new friends, said goodbye to some and cried with many. Through it all I have learned that God knows what He is doing no matter what. He puts people into our lives because He loves us, He wants us to learn to love others besides ourselves and because He is an awesome God. I am excited to see what God has in store for me and my friends I've made here at school this summer. I hope He does something life changing and that we accomplish all that should be accomplished.
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end."
So long.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
One Month and Thirteen Days of Silence
WOW! I haven't blogged in over a month and it's like my entire life happened during that period. Not really,but I have been incredibly busy beyond my belief. Softball literally consumes my life. To paint a picture for you: take softball and think of it as a really strong tornado sucking you in and you have no choice but to go with it because there is no way of escape. Inside this tornado consists a ton of other stuff ranging from school, school, more school and oh! Did I mention school? Yes, that's pretty much my life right now.
I miss my friends and family to the max. BUT I get to go home in T-minus 27 days as of today. My brother and I get to stay an extra week because my brother has a baseball tournament he must attend,but it's okay. I will survive and going home will be all the much more amazing!!!
Sorry for all the randomness,but school is almost over and I'm stoked out of my mind. I'm piled up to my nose with book reports, extra credit, English papers, projects and more, but honestly God is going to get me through this.
Well, peace to everyone. I've missed blogging and I hope to blog more this month and this summer.
Monday, March 7, 2011
I'll Be Home For Summer
I don't know about you,but I hate when I have those dreams that are insanely amazing, realistic, perfect, riveting, exhilarating and then BAM! It's not real. You wake up and reality slaps you right in the face and says "Hello, wake up! I like to trick you by making you believe that dreams are real!" It's rather lame if you ask me,but I guess without dreams like that we wouldn't have stories to tell, blogs to write or reality to face.
My dream last night was pretty legit if you ask me. It seemed pretty real for the most part until I woke up. All I know is that my parents got my brother, my good friend and I all tickets to go home for spring break. We ended up going home and it was legit because we got to hang out with family and go to this magic show. Then my phone broke so I couldn't get a hold of any of my friends to hang out,but it was fine because I was having a lot of fun with my family. Eventually I saw one of my besties at the store and it was amazingly awesome because we hadn't seen each other in so long. I bet you could imagine by now how much I was enjoying this dream and then SMACK! I get slapped in the face and wake up from this dreamland and face reality.
Need less to say, I miss home a lot. I miss my family a ton! I miss my friends to the max as well,but I am looking forward to a great summer full of lots of memories. Can't wait to see you all again in due time.
My dream last night was pretty legit if you ask me. It seemed pretty real for the most part until I woke up. All I know is that my parents got my brother, my good friend and I all tickets to go home for spring break. We ended up going home and it was legit because we got to hang out with family and go to this magic show. Then my phone broke so I couldn't get a hold of any of my friends to hang out,but it was fine because I was having a lot of fun with my family. Eventually I saw one of my besties at the store and it was amazingly awesome because we hadn't seen each other in so long. I bet you could imagine by now how much I was enjoying this dream and then SMACK! I get slapped in the face and wake up from this dreamland and face reality.
Need less to say, I miss home a lot. I miss my family a ton! I miss my friends to the max as well,but I am looking forward to a great summer full of lots of memories. Can't wait to see you all again in due time.
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